Class 2 - Pushing Into The Ice

On the way back from Philadelphia today, I was thinking about just how much is required of us to take our place as an awakening human in an evolving cosmos.   Jeff Carreira, in one of his blogs, talked about the courage and commitment that it takes to actually force yourself to try to see through to a level of consciousness that is literally beyond the one that you are at. He used the same metaphor as the one I used in class, when he described the experience of this line of inquiry as like pushing your face into ice: "...it is painful to maintain contact with the new perspective, but if you keep leaning in you will feel the ice melt and you will start to push deeper into it"  I feel like Jeff is speaking for me when he goes on to say:  "..to me it is a powerful analogy, because it describes one aspect of my own experience of striving for higher and deeper perspectives perfectly. In Foxhollow, we talked about what a kosmo-centric perspective would really be like. We attempted to stretch to see ourselves not as a static fixed entity that is embedded in the universe, but as a process that erupts through time and ultimately as The Process of life that is erupting through time."   This very notion of seeing myself as a process is very challenging.  Awakening to the realization that as an Evolving Self, I am a prism through which (as Andrew said in Boomeritis), consciousness sees itself and through which it evolves, necessitates a struggle against the bounds of my own inertia.  But, as I become more aware of what is True, the grip of the narcissistic Postmodern Sensitive Self loosens.   

Finally, in responding to the many of the questions that the students in my class asked, I felt at the edge of my own development.  It was a humbling experience. I didn't have any answers, just a desire to push further into the ice, and the knowledge that pushing further could only happen as a "We" that was pushing together-as-One.