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Evolutionary Enlightenment
April 2007 
Freedom
Posted on Apr 25th, 2007
by 
Mark
Mark
This week we had Class 3, Meditation and The Ground of Being, and here I am, posting and entry to my blog, as I do after every Class. I don’t necessarily want to do this tonight. Indeed, since class, I have had two days when I feel like I have played “full out,” and now I would much rather relax. You know, “take it easy” and watch some TV, just chill. Yet, here I am, for this is clearly something that I need to do. So, whether I want to or not, or feel like doing it is just not a consideration. After all, I’m writing this out of my desire, more than anything else to consciously evolve and to no longer be imprisoned by any want or feeling, good or bad. Finally, I’m here doing this out of a sacred obligation that I’ve made both as a student of Andrew’s and as an Instructor of the Introduction to Evolutionary Enlightenment Course.
In moments like these, I find myself struggling against my conditioning, fighting to go beyond and pay attention to something other than the force of my own narcissism. Yet, also it is in moments like these, that I feel so grateful for the power and clarity of The Teachings themselves. For it is through the practice of Evolutionary Enlightenment that I have come to know who I really am, why I’m here, and how to live my life.
The gift of Evolutionary Enlightenment has been the end to a radical degree of any existential confusion in my life. Before, I struggled with a lot of things. Now, it seems as though all my struggles are about living up to what I know to be True, where integrity has become a matter of my being in congruence with the Authentic Self. So, in moments like this I am grateful. Grateful to be able to consciously participate in the evolution of consciousness; grateful to no longer have any doubts about life; grateful to have a teacher like Andrew and be part of a revolution in consciousness and culture where people bring out the best in you..
So what, might you ask, does this all have to do with meditation and the Ground of Being? Evolutionary Enlightenment is a learned perspective. And. it is through the practice of meditation that I am learning to let go - learning that I am not the movement of my thought and the presence of my feelings. For in experiencing the absolute depth of who I am, I have come to know the Self free of the fear, concern and desire. And the more I come to know the Authentic Self, the more I am able to live a life of conscious choice. For that, I am grateful. For choice is freedom. So, perhaps choosing to write this blog tonight is a victory, a small act of being free.
What do you think?
In moments like these, I find myself struggling against my conditioning, fighting to go beyond and pay attention to something other than the force of my own narcissism. Yet, also it is in moments like these, that I feel so grateful for the power and clarity of The Teachings themselves. For it is through the practice of Evolutionary Enlightenment that I have come to know who I really am, why I’m here, and how to live my life.
The gift of Evolutionary Enlightenment has been the end to a radical degree of any existential confusion in my life. Before, I struggled with a lot of things. Now, it seems as though all my struggles are about living up to what I know to be True, where integrity has become a matter of my being in congruence with the Authentic Self. So, in moments like this I am grateful. Grateful to be able to consciously participate in the evolution of consciousness; grateful to no longer have any doubts about life; grateful to have a teacher like Andrew and be part of a revolution in consciousness and culture where people bring out the best in you..
So what, might you ask, does this all have to do with meditation and the Ground of Being? Evolutionary Enlightenment is a learned perspective. And. it is through the practice of meditation that I am learning to let go - learning that I am not the movement of my thought and the presence of my feelings. For in experiencing the absolute depth of who I am, I have come to know the Self free of the fear, concern and desire. And the more I come to know the Authentic Self, the more I am able to live a life of conscious choice. For that, I am grateful. For choice is freedom. So, perhaps choosing to write this blog tonight is a victory, a small act of being free.
What do you think?
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It's such an opportunity to be in the class and inquire into Evolutionary Enlightenment. The purpose for getting together to learn and meditate is so beyond what can be comprehended and yet the pull is there and there are a few of us who have always heard or felt this call. The class makes it real and it's very great. Meditation in the way that Andrew teaches it , has been the most transforming practice. To just sit, relax and pay attention can be a challenge - as I mentioned on Kevin's blog but then so is life. In the midst of challenges whether they be physical, mental, relational or whatever - with any choice - there seems to be greater ability to be “with it” to pay attention to it and to trust the choice of the action taken. It's such an opportunity to even imagine what life might be like if we all came from the this vast perspective.
Thanks for being our class facilitator again. Your insights are very valuable.
In some regards my ego has won out lately, in particular with these homework assignments. Fortunately in many other areas of my life my ego has been in last place. But I always had problems with homework assignments, even when the subject matter was of great interest and importance to me. I suppose it was the connotation of ‘assignment’ that dampened my enthusiasm to pursue my interest. My motto was always “I’ll stop procrastinating tomorrow.” Unfortunately, that was the case here as well. And although it is undeniably true that i am technically extremely busy with little time for these pursuits, it is also UNDENIABLY TRUE that I had time for these pursuits had i MADE the time through my will and passion. The truth is less about the facts of my current circumstances, it’s more about my level of commitment and profound desire to live up to something greater despite whatever else is going on.
Well, hopefully it’s never too late. I will be writing more this weekend. And so it goes without saying that i empathize with your struggle, mark, and really admire your egoless candor in expressing it. You frequently cite examples of a battle every morning to start the day and the reluctance you feel sometimes toward meditation. It is nice to hear that sort of relateable struggle from a teacher. I too face these struggles, but what i realize is not to get frustrated with myself or condemn myself in any way, but also not to let myself off the hook and deny that it’s less than my full potential. I just pause in non judgmental awareness to notice that surge of energy within, that has been with me since i can remember, that wants nothing more than to become more…and my enthusiasm then starts to outshine my gripes and doubts and i then do what may be difficult, but clearly is necessary.
I love how i now can so easily find this endless source of energy and have trust that it is a real thing with a depth, nature, and history far beyond me…something which i can utilize to carry me forward rather than referring to, say, a mere principle, or concept, to guide my next action…which, despite that concept’s possible poetry or truth bearing, it is a gray, lifeless, and ineffectual substitute to the visceral experiential compulsion that is my relationship with this energy source.